Hopelessly Yearning

crazy vurld.

2006-05-26T05:10:46Z

I can't believe the school year is coming to an end. Even though I had an especially long school year this time around it still managed to go by way too quickly. I have a feeling that although good things are coming, I want a little more time doddlying and living the life I have been in Ashland. Just a little more time than I have, I guess I always want that. And next fall won't quite by the same but I always feel that way too. For one, Cayleigh will be gone. I am really really going to miss that girl as a friend and a roomate. I guess I am used to missing people though and I don't need their physical presence to appreciate them. Like all my friends in Seattle, or friends who have left Ashland...
I wish I was going to have more time in Seattle this summer. It will be so weird not having the whole summer to ride my bike, lay in the sun or rain and work at PCC. I've worked at PCC during the summer for the past 5 years? whoa. weird. time flies......
I am listening to the new flaming lips that my dad sent me along with a new neil young and paul simon. The flaming lips cd is freaking awesome, I wish I was going to sasquatch this weekend.

I had my jazz dance routine final today and it wasn't anywhere near as cool as the one I did with miss emily goll our freshman year but it was pretty sweet. I was thinking during class how much I like watching people dance. Everyone had to get up there in front of the whole class and do a dance and it was so awesome to see what people came up with, kind of like a window into who they are. I love how we get so much pleasure moving our bodies in dance and also watching people dance. It doesn't involve anything except our own bodies we were born with and some music I guess because it's pretty difficult to dance to no music although not impossible by any means. Anyways, everyone in the class had really diverse routines and even the really bad ones were beautiful....=)
I wish I could come up with song names like this: My Cosmic Autumn Rebellion (The Inner Life As Blazing Shield Of Defiance And Optimism As Celestial Spear Of Action)

I have been a very very bad student this quarter. Today was the first time in my college career I believe that I didn't turn in a paper that was due. I just didn't do it, totally slipped my mind. So now on my one fun night, thursday, I am stuck writing about the struggles of a transgendered person compared with other cultures conception of gender and the overall narrow view that people have of gender.

with all your power? what would you do.

oh emily goll~ call me, when are you coming down here, i have to know or we might be doing a crazy camping trip instead of sunriver because i don't know if the house is occupied!

cha cha cha

2006-03-07T08:28:17Z

I smell like indian food.
Today at work I had a conversation with a lady around the age of 80 who has had a very interesting life and she told me allllll about it. It is very strange though, she is insistant on setting me up with her ex lover who lives in Germany. She couldn't wait to give me his information for when I am there next year and she says he is perfect for me and if it doesn't work out between us he can be a good friend. So she is 80 years old.....meaning her ex lover is probably around the same age. ??????

I am scared about teaching teenagers about pregnancy prevention and research methods. If you saw the teenagers that hang out around Ashland you would know why, they are like cooler than me and I look younger than most of them.

well that is a short entry but not much new is going on in my life I guess. I can't wait for spring break but I wish more people or anyone for that matter had the same spring break as me. I will be visiting walla walla and maybe even bellingham for a night, if you do so happen to be in seattle between march 24th and april 3rd I would love to see you.

yonderer @ 2006-01-30T16:22:00

2006-01-31T00:28:51Z

Ah yes, just when I thought I was doing fine! It's amazing what your mindset can do and how easy it is to lie to yourself.

Grrrr.

Well, I just thought everyone should know that Eli is a "Tree of Wisdom" I think that's what I called him last night.
After a difficult and hard discussion with Evan filled with things I didn't want to hear I smoked some pot and after it didnt even help me I had the biggest urge to call eli because I knew he had been through this and lived.
I didn't even expect Eli to have all the answers or anything I just wanted to hear his perspective. But oh my god! He does have all the answers. It was amazing, he knew exactly what to say and didn't hold back or be nice or tell me what I wanted to hear.
So if your having problems in life, I suggest you call him. It is amazing what one phone call can do for you.

Life Goes On

2006-01-23T05:29:58Z

My first weekend actually being IN Ashland was quite nice. It is a weird thing to have a house all to yourself. Well, the house isn't all to myself, I share it with 4 other people and 5 if you include Jordan who is always here but none the less, it is our house!! We can do anything in it and be as loud as we want...lol, I don't think I'll ever get over this. I guess lots of people have houses, but this one on 83 Morton st. just feels so right. Plus there is a jacuzzi that I am going to get some use out of tonight.
Weird, I am listening to this song from Ben's cd that he gave emily and I over break and the first line is, "it's been so long, it feels like I've never been to the san juans" That's exactly how I feel!! My family has a cabin there that I haven't been to in ages...
So it snowed here in Ashland on Friday and it was so beautiful, the biggest snow flakes I've ever seen!! I sat in the coffee shop and watched it fall for about an hour. Blissful...

I played Bocce Ball in Lithia Park sometime last week and it went a bit like it did with Emily, Ashley and Reed, because it was very very cold and our fingers almost froze off but we played until both Jordan and I had 10 and then we did a sudden death match and I won!!
weeeeeeell,

my new address is

83 Morton st.
Ashland OR 97520

I like notes from secret admirers

smelly

2006-01-13T01:03:10Z

So, after just 5 days of living in my new house I've managed to almost burn it down. Yes, It was on fire. I was up in my room talking to Steve about his adventure in Africa when I smelled something repulsive. I quickly went downstairs and saw that I had microwaved my metal to go mug...and it was on fire. Damn it! Why don't I know things like "don't put metal in the microwave...!" So I poured buckets of water on the microwave and it went away, thank god...but now we are left wtih a charcoled microwave that I will be paying for. So much for getting my safety deposit back.

Besides the fire episode life in Ashland is great and breathtaking in beauty as always. I'm constantly reminded of the absence of Evan just by being here but I have a feeling things are going to be okay. Cayleigh is moving into my house too so it will be a house of fun...

yonderer @ 2005-12-14T18:32:00

2005-12-15T04:34:48Z

ick, I have a gross feeling in my stomach, I realize it's probably a mixture of studying in the stupid cold library all day and knowing I'm not going to be seeing evan for a very very long time.

I just want it to go away.

yonderer @ 2005-12-05T15:20:00

2005-12-06T01:26:53Z

Another update on my weekend....I can't believe it was almost my last one! Tomorrow Is Evan's Birthday. I bought him some clay....

Well, I do not think anything very exciting happened on Friday besides my being in Ahualoa....let's see....we made hot chocolate and watched zephyr, we went for a drive out to look at stars....and we played FALF.

On Saturday we woke up pretty early, went on a beautiful hike from Waimea out to the back of Waimanu Valley...it was long and hot but very much worth it. We saw a bowl of clouds and took a nap right at the edge of it. We got caught in the Waimea Christmas parade where there were tons of people gathered around to watch huge semi trucks with christmas lights honk their horns. Then we grabbed some veggie burgers and went over to somones' house for a BBQ. We drank apricot ale and played 20 questions with a robot and a card game called schiezkopf. We got home late and went in the furo.

Sunday was another lazy one, we sat around in the morning and then went horseback riding and then played bocha ball and I was so close to finally beating Jamoona but alas....We went in the neighbors beautiful ceder sauna as it rained outside we sweated like mad pigs inside.

Time to go!

yonderer @ 2005-12-01T20:28:00

2005-12-02T06:29:49Z

IS A THOUGHT MAYA???????

I've eaten a whole bunch of smarties and I don't think they're making me any smarter. I don't even understand what Maya is but 8 pages on it are 40% of my grade due tomorrow!!!!

yonderer @ 2005-11-29T13:26:00

2005-11-29T23:35:25Z

man, the tarot card reader was so right on. this has been an emotional roller coaster. there have been so many extreme ups and there have definately been downs. But all in all, I love the big island. It is so alive with beautiful places and beautiful people. Sean told me the other day that he knows one thing: people need people. He's right.

I overdrew on my bank account and I have no money and no food. Ahh, I am so hungry. Luckily I have a boyfriend who will come rescue me tonight. Finals are coming up and that sucks because it means my time here is almost up.

I look forward to seeing everyone in Seattle!

Mamalahoa HWY Hawaii, week 1

2005-08-21T01:48:16Z

Ah yes, I have not updated this thing in a LONG time, and I don't think I would except that I need to write about this week somewhere and I have not made any contact with any of my friends from home since I got here. Here being The Big Island, Hawaii.

I arrived a week ago after a long flight, nothing compared to Emily's long flight to Spain I am sure, but it felt mighty long. My emotions were mixed, I went from being insanely excited to visit a tropical paradise and have my boyfriend pick me up from the airport and from being totally freaked out, even though 4 months is really not that long to spend away from home, it sure feels like it when my mom says we'll be getting the christmas tree the day after I come home in December.

When I got off the airport in Hilo, my new home, the air was muggy and I couldn't breathe all the way in, but the aroma of plumeria flowers were everywhere and I loved it. Evan was waiting for me, well, I waited for him, but he came running up to me with a beautiful leigh. So now I can say, "I got leighed in Hawaii". haha, that'll never get old. We preceded to go down to Banyan Drive, the beach part of the town I live in. It is not white sand and blue water but it is absolutely gorgeous. A huge toad jumped on my foot when we were down there.

I like my apartment. I have it mostly fixed up but I haven't spent much time in it because after my program meeting on Monday which was an orientation type thing with speakers about cultural disorientation, Evan and I went to his house. We stopped at a Beach so that I could feel the rush of swimming in the warm ocean and it was great, Everyone told me the water isn't actually THAT warm, but trust me, it is. It is soooo warm. Anyways, We went to Evan's house.

Evan's house is out of a fairytale. It's surrounded by lush forest, he has 2 horses. And his house is made up of 2 hexagons and an adjoining room, when you are in it, you feel like you are either in a ship or a treehouse. There are windows everywhere and he has a big dog and lots of cats. He also has this handbuilt chinese hot tub thing called an afuru or something, it's the greatest thing to go in late at night naked and look up at the stars which are so bright here.

We spent the week going to various beaches on the Kona side, where there is white sand and blue ocean. We hiked to a secluded beach and it swam in the big waves. I love swimming in the ocean, either in waves or swimming places, I can't get enough of it. I hate having to get out of the water.

We camped at the coolest places a couple of nights ago, it was a beach where all these people just put out their tents, there were bright colors everywhere and music playing and it was the full moon. Evan and I watched my first Hawaiian sun setting over the ocean, very romantic. The next night we camped at the Volocano. And now we are home, home being Hilo, my apartment. I survived my first week without getting sun burned thanks to lots and lots of sunscreen and my fantastic cowboy hat. Evan is curled up on the couch right now sleeping and I think we are going to the Farmers market to get fruit for me.

Oh, I forgot, I swam with turtles!!!!!! Emily will know how exciting this is for me. They are awesome. Everything about Hawaii is awesome in fact. I have decided this is the best decision I have ever made in my life, coming here. Hehe, we'll see how I feel in a few weeks. Supposedly I am in the "honey moon stage" of exchange. Soon I will move on to "Hostility" But I don't think the beauty of this place will fade.
Anyway, I am sure I will be lonely when Evan leaves tomorrow for work, but my classes start on Monday and from what I have seen, campus is really beautiful.
Aloha! Megan

The Red Scarf

2005-06-03T17:23:09Z

I haven't even updated since I got my hedgehog! That was my last entry......and I did get her and her name is Scarlet O'hara. But she bites me and our relationship is going to shambles.
In other news, I am still in Ashland and have finals next week. Sadly, I am most afraid for the Statistics final, the class I took senior year. The others shouldn't be too hard although packing up all my crap and fitting it into one little honda WILL be hard. I am looking forward to spending time in Seattle although I only have 2 months before I am off again to Hawaii this time. The time will go by quickly as I will be working again at the ol' PCC. Not as a courtesy clerk though! No, I will be working in alll the departments....lucky me.

I am going to miss Ashland though and I won't be back for so long and when I do come back it'll all be different. I think the first thing I will do when I get back to Seattle is go to Tubs, I am craving a sandwhich right now.

I would like to thank Emily Goll, Ashley Jackson and Reed Schuler for driving the long 10 hrs (normally 7.5 hrs) down here to Ashland to visit me. They are the coolest even if they think my cafeteria is heaven, are poor losers at Life and don't approve of unshaven armpits. =)

oh, i was tagged by emily, i think that means i say 6 songs i like, so:

Ms. Carrolls Strathspey-Taarka
Stay Loose-Belle and Sebastian
Tangerine-Led Zeppelin
Atlantic City-The Band
Even Tho-Joseph Arthur
Last Song-Jason Webly

HULA

2005-04-12T21:09:07Z

I MIGHT GET A HEDGEHOG!!!!!!!

it's soooooooooo cute.

Your brain excites me!

2005-04-04T21:41:17Z

I am sitting in Cayleigh and Alix's room, Alix is sleeping and I am enjoying the most delicious sandwhich I have had in a long time. It has pepperjack cheese, cream cheese, olives, onions, sprouts...okay no one cares about my sandwhich.

It feels like spring break was a LONG time ago...and it's only been a week. A good week though, the first good week of a quarter I have experianced. Cayliegh and Ashley's birthdays where on Thursday and we had a party in the dorms because none of our off campus friends seemed to be available. It was fun none the less, we got incredibly smashed and Cayleigh even said it was the best birthday she ever had. We made special blue and green drinks that were delicous.

I managed to go to class the next morning at nine and then an interview and then a meeting, my head throbbing and my stomach queasy. Albertson's said they would love to hire me though...so it's nice to know I can make a good impression when completely hungover.
On Saturday I saw a movie at the Ashland Independent Film festival called Scared Sacred. It was about looking for the Hope in Horribe Events that have happened, ie: Cambodia, Death Camps, 9/11...it left me feeling inarticulate and a little empty actually. I need to travel.

Then Evan and I rode our bikes around Ashland, Having a bike in this town is crucial, I get so much use out of it. We went to a theatre party and it reminded me of parties at home....

okay must run to economics where my teacher puts on Dead light shows and talks about life being groovy!

fucking america west

2005-02-23T07:00:54Z

I hate America West airlines!!!!
ahhh, My flight was delayed and I missed my connecting flight in Las Vegas and the earliest they could get me out was one oclock!! AHH, it sucked. it was 1 in the morning and I should NOT have missed my classes today, like really really should not have missed more classes.
They put me up in a hotel though, the largest super 8 motel in the world, in las vegas, so it wasn't alll bad, except I was only at the hotel for about 4 hours before I had to go back to the airport to fly to phoenix and THEN to medford. god damnit, i know longer love planes. I then preceded to leave my bag on the airplane, so now I don't have the presents I got people, they are on a fucking america west airplane.

There were these 2 boys from Grants pass who were in the same boat as I and stayed at the worlds largest super 8 with me. They were hilarious! I was so glad they were there to keep me from going insane with bitter anger. At first they were laughing and joking about missing our flight and I was about to strangle them but then I started to lighten up and then they filmed me on their camera that they were taking of their trip and I got to explain what had happened to us. I even taught them the lord of the rings song because they were into that kind of stuff. hehe.

So I got to my dorm room at about 3 oclock today, running on noooo energy, only...well, running on empty. I had to go to my first day of work at the library at 5 oclock and move books for 5 and half hours.

sorry for all the extremely heavy ranting, but it is necessary, so that I do not explode.

I have to figure out my classes for next quarter by thursday!! shit.

okay, i am wasting precious time.

Greetings From New York

2005-02-21T16:43:16Z

I am sitting in Kalei's dorm room right now, looking out the window at the huge buildings and there is snow on the ground! I love New York City (just like the song). I envy all you who go to school here, it is sooo amazing. I don't go want to go back!
Kalei's school is crazzzy. They have all these security check points and it looks like a hotel, it's very nice though, very very nice.
Last night we saw rent, for free! we won tickets, I've already seen it but I love it so much, I wanted to see it again. And I saw Mrs. Zadra there!! How bizarre!! I talked to her for awhile, she was visiting people who are good friends of Mr. Quillen, but he wasn't at the show. Anyways, small world, huh?
Let's see, more fun things....We went to MOMA, we ate at a restaurant called "coffee shop" hehe, it was very...coool.
I've been running on like noooo sleep though and I feel a sickness comin on, which is so not good considering I work 40 hrs next week and crunch time is coming up. eeks.
Okay, Kalei should be back any minute and we are off to explore Greenwich before I leave tonight at 8 pm.

crazy sexy cool

2005-02-17T06:38:48Z

So, this week has been h-e-c-t-i-c. I sure picked a good weekend to fly to the city...haha, fly to the city, that sounds so cool.
Let's see, So my Valentines Day was very sweet. I woke up to an unexpected long stem rose at my door. I knew it would be from Evan, so at first I had an, "oh no...i shouldnt of stayed at his apartment, I gave him the wrong impression..." feeling. But then there was a not that said, "Megan Rose~don't freak out, this is a plutonic rose" and it was very sweet.
Then I went do a very nice dinner all dressed up with some girls and our waiter said that any guy would be out of his mind not take us out on valentines, which was sweet. Then I saw Jason Webley!! for free! it was awwwwessome. He made us all drunk by spinning in circles and made a girl skip around the room because it was her birthday...

so i must finish einpacken for tomorrow

guten nacht.

it's all over now, baby blue

2005-02-11T02:54:43Z

I felt like such a...slacker today. Last night I went to the Flowmotion concert. Yes, yes, I got into the 21 and over event. It was awesome to say the least. Alix and I got there pretty early, and the guy from the band let us in, he preceded to hit on us all night, when he wasn't playing that is. I'm not talking like subtle hitting on...I wouldn't mention in it otherwise, but it was pretty amusing. Well, Alix and I decided it would be fun to smoke a joint before the concert....It made the long walk go by very quickly and actually all of last night seems kind of like a dream...There were some crazzzy people there....hm...

This morning, unfortunately, I regretted my decision of staying out until 3, I skipped german and core and only went to economics because I had a test. But it was such a beautiful day and I walked downtown with Ashley, who I haven't been spending nearly enough time with.

Things with Evan...are....good, in the sense that we are still very good friends, and weird in the sense that I am soooo confused as to what my feelings are for him.
It's thursday night! my favorite day of the week, but...I don't really feel like going out.

Oh! I got married today. To Alix. On campus they had this protest not allowing same sex marriage thing. And they had a podium with a rainbow flag and were basically making fun of marriage, one girl married her vagina. But we got roses and a certificate and cake and punch! And the newspaper took a picture of me and alix feeding eachother cake and said they would put it in for sure.

she said she'd always been a dancer....

The air tastes good to my palate. The air tastes good to my palate.

2005-02-06T21:59:36Z

It's a cloudy cloudy morning here....Hasn't been cloudy in what seems like months, I love Ashland's weather.
I just got done having the best breakfast with my mom who came to visit me this weekend.
I also just ended my whoppin 1 and half week relationship with Evan. It was tough, He probably likes me more than any boy I will ever meet and I will probably not find anyone who would treat me as good but...I am not someone who can fake it or be into it at all if I am not into it 100%. if that makes any sense. Basically I am just a masochisitic fool. He drew me art! and sang songs for me! But I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it went relatively well, we will undoubtably stay friends. It was just that too many times I have been on the other end I didnt want to lead him on and hurt him more in the long run. so yeah, blah blah blah.

I just watched the birthday video that Eli made me for my birthday. And I FINALLY showed it too my friends, they loooved it. And it made me smile, I love it that I will remember the moments in that video so well for the rest of my life. Hopefully I will remember other moments as clearly.

2 weeks till New York!! sweeeeet.

starfish and coffee

2005-02-04T01:44:24Z

It is such a beautiful day in Ashland. It's like tank top weather, I just got done running up and down the hills because I had a lot of stress to release, it's been a crazy week. My mom is coming to visit me though! And Saul Williams is here on friday...
I feel like I haven't had anytime to breathe in awhile and I hate that, I crave my alone time more than anything. On my run/walk today, I passed a set of swings and realized I hadn't swung on any in awhile so I swung on them, listening to the ever wonderful ani difranco and the sun was setting, it was a nice moment. But then a 3 year old child got on the swings next to me and asked her mother to push her, I felt a bit awkward, jumped off and was on my way. Oh! I also ran to the Alias season 3 soundtrack (made by ms. goll.) It's perfect for working out.

I've been getting a lot of use out of my bike, unknown to me first quarter, there are like a bazillion trails around ashland. This weekend I went to the California Coast, Hidden beach, it was sooo pretty, I do love the ocean and we made a campfire and roasted bagels and marshmellows. I can't wait for spring term when we can do this all the time. I watched Fantasia the other night while stoned, I'd been wanting to do that for a while and it totally lived up to my expectations.

My horoscope has been sooo right on lately. =)

Ok, time to take a shower and have a cleaning room party.

the black sheep

2005-01-24T08:37:09Z

This weekend was good. I love having three day weekends every week, there is almost the same amount of free days as there are work days. I didn't do enough homework though and I feel like a slacker. Today I finally had the feeling of loving college and I felt included in that group of people who when people ask them if they like school and they say, "yes, I love it" and actually mean it.
On Thursday night, we went to the library and played cherades and then went to an attempted ska concert on campus. Sadly, we appeared to be the only people in the audience but we stayed, until they did a horrible rendition of ice ice baby. Friday Night I played drinking games for awhile with just the girls, we asked eachother silly, "difficult questions." It was fun and different because I couldn't remember the last time I hung out with just a bunch of girls and did girl things, maybe like girlscouts in seventh grade....my friends tell me I don't seem like someone who had a lot of girl friends...hm...On Saturday we had a picnic with the best sandwhiches in the world from Pangea and went to Lithia Park. A police officer called us sweathearts and as it got colder and colder we huddled under the blanket and looked like a bunch of tweekers.

Today in Ashland it was absolutely beautiful. It was sunny and warm, I guess southern oregon has some sort of "false spring." But I wore a Tshirt and sandels and was warm! I dyed Alix's hair outside on a blanket and then we used the left over dye to tyedye my jeans, Evan drew beautiful art on them and seranaded us with his guitar. We then went to an irish pub called the black sheep where there were having some big celebration. I felt like I was in Titanic, in that one scene where they dance under the deck. There were so many drunk people and loud irish music, we had tea and scones and I did a bit of a jig, I also waltzed with a 75 year old man. It was pretty sweet, trust me.

Now I get to learn about whether or not to make ethical decisions based on emotions or reasonings....hm....tough call.

tea cups and sand.

2005-01-17T11:04:06Z

best thing about college so far: getting to throw pottery on the spinners whenever you want. we went tonight at 2 in the morning and i made my first bowl/mug/something. we had the whole place to ourselves. awww, nothing feels as good as wet clay. I molded a clay turtle with my leftover clay. His name is Herber, maybe I will give him to emily if she is lucky.

I went to a toga party last night. and yes, i wore a toga. brought back memories of...that senior day we had to wear togas.

our friend's mom is in town and has taken us out to three meals this weekend. three meals! for like 6 kids at the yummiest restaurants. sooo incredibly nice of her.

I'm going to New York! flights booked today. Feb. 17th to the 21st! To visit Kalei, should be bundles of fun. There are cheap flights right now, like really cheap. 150 dollars round trip cheap.

alright, short entry, but I must sleep now. awww sleep.xxxxxxxxx

taxation.

2005-01-12T07:00:26Z

Best deal ever: German Movie nights. why? Get this, Free good movie, Free Pizza, and Extra credit points. couldn't get better.
Plus, a cute boy, asked me to study with him before the movie in the cafe. even though we had absolutely nothing to study. suspicious. He also invited me to a cheese/wine party on saturday. we'll see if i actually go, i am not one for parties where i don't know anyone.

so yes, school was going along fine for the first week, and then came sunday, and I spoke with Alex from work. Turns out ross is together with the older girl who has a kid. Naturally, at first I was to say the least, angry and heartbroken...even more so than before. But I have decided to not take it out on him and as eli pointed out, I should happy for the girl with the kid cause it's hard for single mothers to find a good enough guy to stay with them. so that chapter in my life is over, and slowly I WILL move on.

ok, i just realized my laundry has been sitting in the laundry room for 2 hours all wet and i will probably have to wash it again. crap.

taco hell

2005-01-08T10:19:20Z

ok i feel much better.

i could be dreaming...

2005-01-03T05:56:29Z

Well, Back In Ashland. Can't say I'm glad to be back, I am glad it's a new year though. And what a year it's been. It was almost perfect until the month of December. I pretty much hate December. It makes sense to me that I can think of two songs with the titles, "Just Get me through December" and "If we make it through December." But I suppose I did get through seeing that it is January.
Anyways, after finishing one quarter I can say that college is not what I expected. Well, my college at least. I don't think I like Oregon. And I am definately not a small town girl. Therefore I want to transfer...this probably won't happen, but I wish I could.
Break was awesome and I look forward to seeing everyone again, whenever, that may be.

the rain in spain stays mainly on the plain

2004-12-30T01:56:29Z

Sometimes Yellow is an overwhelming color.
My future house will have yellow walls.
Not BRIGHT yellow walls, but walls that resemble the warm glow of sunshine and I will live in Tuscany and grow grapes and sometimes, I will run through wheat fields shouting at the top of my lungs in Italian.

Today I woke up to the grey and cloudy Seattle weather that I love so much and then I washed my hair with the most delicious smelling shampoo ever created by women. At about 1:40 I walked across the street and ate a bagel. At 1:53, I pondered the meaning of the moon. Conclusion? definately made of cheese.

New Years Resolution: attempt if possible to continue to be the coolest person in the entire universe and beyond. Shouldn't be hard.

Inspiration for life comes mostly from a head drinking coffee. Bodies excluded.

Love Wins.